Sunday's are suppose to be for a day of rest...not a day to clean...right? I could just catch up on sleep, laziness and coffee drinking BUT I know that during these rare days off, I have to catch up on fun things like cleaning toilets, laundry and vacumning.
Since I started working full time a couple of years ago, I was struck my the overwhelming sense of satisfaction of just seeing vacumn lines and smelling fabreeze throughout the house. Is that wrong of me? I just know that I get 2 short days off to be "present" in my kids world and show them I am "really here and want to hang out" with them and not just 30 minutes here and there when I'm going over homework at night! My kids rock my soul...I say that alot and I really believe that! When I am down, one of them will walk in and say something that recharges my heart and soul. Again, it's not the BIG things like you think you need to hear...it's the simple "mom, I love lucky charms or wanna watch a movie together?" So, as I lay in bed right this second with my coffee cup on the nightstand, son under the covers wanting to take a nap with his mom and house that's not the cleanest...I AM HAPPY! I love Sunday's and all in my world is right!
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Re~dedicated...
Last night I re~dedicated my life and heart to our Lord in Savior. It's not a huge "hoopla" or a vision of mystical lights shining down from Heaven like I use to think that needed to happen. No...it's simple. I want to make all my decisions THROUGH God first. For those that thought what I did "well that means that I need to be PERFECT and NEVER make another mistake!" NO...that means that when life is getting me down...get on my knees and pray for God to show me the blessings in my life. When I am tempted to do something that my "little voice" says is not right and will hurt me...trust it and walk away! I am so happy that God does not give up on us EVER and wants us to come to Him, just as we are!
Prayer is so powerful...I talk to God as a friend "Ok Dude...i am so stressed right now and don't know how to get my crap together"...help me God. That's an example of a prayer to Him and then all of a sudden my son will walk up to me and say "Mom, I love you and thanks for the poptarts you got me, they are my favorite kind!" and I bow my head and say "ok God...I get it"
So Again, I don't know who is going to ever read these blogs but I know God is and for the FIRST darn time in my life...that's all that matters!
Satan has lost another lost girl's heart!
SCORE:
Satan: 15000 lost souls GOD: HE WILL WIN THEM ALL!
My new goal: Tell one person a day that Jesus loves them and just trust in Him!
Prayer is so powerful...I talk to God as a friend "Ok Dude...i am so stressed right now and don't know how to get my crap together"...help me God. That's an example of a prayer to Him and then all of a sudden my son will walk up to me and say "Mom, I love you and thanks for the poptarts you got me, they are my favorite kind!" and I bow my head and say "ok God...I get it"
So Again, I don't know who is going to ever read these blogs but I know God is and for the FIRST darn time in my life...that's all that matters!
Satan has lost another lost girl's heart!
SCORE:
Satan: 15000 lost souls GOD: HE WILL WIN THEM ALL!
My new goal: Tell one person a day that Jesus loves them and just trust in Him!
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Babysteps...
It's gonna be a quick one tonight. I am so thrilled that God has been showing me that taking tiny step to do the will of God is better than standing still in the same place. Also, I must go THROUGH Him to get things done the right way! LOVE IT...I'm OK with baby steps!! I might seem like the most confident and secure person but baby steps is all I got right now...but the pedicure will look good while I'm taking those baby steps! :)
I hope that when people see what God is doing in my life, they will want to know more about the God that has found me in pieces lately and STILL wants all the pieces of me. I am not a preachy type of girl but...I do want my family and friends to know one thing about me...I truly believe that God makes us go through some weather and storms to make us see that God is the ONLY way and the LIGHT!
I'm gonna be singing tomorrow night to give some glory back to the God that deserves it all...i don't think I have alot to offer God, but he gave me a voice and I'm gonna use it!
Good night and write more tomorrow!
Babysteps...
I hope that when people see what God is doing in my life, they will want to know more about the God that has found me in pieces lately and STILL wants all the pieces of me. I am not a preachy type of girl but...I do want my family and friends to know one thing about me...I truly believe that God makes us go through some weather and storms to make us see that God is the ONLY way and the LIGHT!
I'm gonna be singing tomorrow night to give some glory back to the God that deserves it all...i don't think I have alot to offer God, but he gave me a voice and I'm gonna use it!
Good night and write more tomorrow!
Babysteps...
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Let there be a Revelation...
As I get settled into work mode today, I am very excited for the future and want to share! A great friend of mine Jayci invited us to visit her church this morning. Though it was quite the travel (lee's summit to grainvalley) and getting 3 kids, mom and dad motivated and ready and even all our teeth brushed to drive 45 minutes for church. As I drove up to the church, I was excited for the change of pace. We didn't have to park 1.6 blocks away due to no parking, there wasn't a crosswalk with 8 church members directing traffic to get us to our crowed foyer to fight for a good seat! The greeting to the small, down to earth, dressed down, kids running around, people introducing themselves as though we were at a family BBQ, feel good church was a pleasant refreshing experience. Pastor Daryl really feels like there is a REVELATION coming and it starts with yourself, heart and talking and truely listening to God. Can I hear Him? Am I truely listening? Do I want to hear God or am I scared to death? These are the questions that are going through my mind.
In church service a great story was told and I want to share it:
A little girl was walking down the street when she past a Five and Dime store(for those that don't know what that is it's like a thrift store) and saw a pearl necklace. She thought that was the prettiest necklace she'd ever seen (fake and plastic), so she worked around the house to earn enough money to go buy that necklace. She wore that pearl necklace EVERYWHERE! She wore them in the bath, to bed and never took that necklace off. One night her daddy walked in and said "baby girl, I have a question for you...DO YOU LOVE ME?" and that little girl said "of course dad...duh!" and He said "will you give me your necklace?" and she replied "but Daddy that is my favorite necklace, please don't ask me for that. So He said "ok, nevermind"
The next night her daddy walked in and sat by her bed and asked the same question and again, she responded the same "Daddy of course I love you but I love this necklace" and once again...He said "ok, that's ok" Each night he did the same thing and asked her the same question until one night He asked again and this time the little girl said with tears in her eyes..."your my daddy and I love you so much daddy...here is my necklace" and her Daddy with tears in his eyes took that fake, scratched, tattered pearl necklace and put it in his pocket and reached in the other pocket and presented her with a long black box and inside was a dazzling, new, real pearl necklace! Moral of the story is this: God wants us to give all that we have and He will make sure that everything else is new, dazzling and REAL! I for one hold on to things that are fake, tattered and scratched...can I let go of my pearl necklace?
Ive always thought that a Christian was suppose to look a CERTAIN WAY, ACT A CERTAIN WAY, BE A CERTAIN WAY and what I am realizing is God wants me just the way I am tattered, scratched and sometimes even fake. He wants me just the way I am...He made me in all His glory! You know what I say to that "whew...thank God!"
So that is where my heart is this afternoon...I think I have a few necklaces that I could give to Him!
In church service a great story was told and I want to share it:
A little girl was walking down the street when she past a Five and Dime store(for those that don't know what that is it's like a thrift store) and saw a pearl necklace. She thought that was the prettiest necklace she'd ever seen (fake and plastic), so she worked around the house to earn enough money to go buy that necklace. She wore that pearl necklace EVERYWHERE! She wore them in the bath, to bed and never took that necklace off. One night her daddy walked in and said "baby girl, I have a question for you...DO YOU LOVE ME?" and that little girl said "of course dad...duh!" and He said "will you give me your necklace?" and she replied "but Daddy that is my favorite necklace, please don't ask me for that. So He said "ok, nevermind"
The next night her daddy walked in and sat by her bed and asked the same question and again, she responded the same "Daddy of course I love you but I love this necklace" and once again...He said "ok, that's ok" Each night he did the same thing and asked her the same question until one night He asked again and this time the little girl said with tears in her eyes..."your my daddy and I love you so much daddy...here is my necklace" and her Daddy with tears in his eyes took that fake, scratched, tattered pearl necklace and put it in his pocket and reached in the other pocket and presented her with a long black box and inside was a dazzling, new, real pearl necklace! Moral of the story is this: God wants us to give all that we have and He will make sure that everything else is new, dazzling and REAL! I for one hold on to things that are fake, tattered and scratched...can I let go of my pearl necklace?
Ive always thought that a Christian was suppose to look a CERTAIN WAY, ACT A CERTAIN WAY, BE A CERTAIN WAY and what I am realizing is God wants me just the way I am tattered, scratched and sometimes even fake. He wants me just the way I am...He made me in all His glory! You know what I say to that "whew...thank God!"
So that is where my heart is this afternoon...I think I have a few necklaces that I could give to Him!
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Weekend Hours!!
You know when you are wanting to have a baby, all you see are woman that are expecting? When your on a diet, why is there donuts just showing up at work all of a sudden? This "break" from marriage that I am calling a seperation is the same way. I am working on a Saturday today at my wonderful new job and the first 4 shows are people getting a divorce. 4 people in a one hour period sharing their stories of failed marriages, raising kids and trying to put the pieces of their life and hearts back together. Does God do this to give you answers? Does He do it to show me to keep fighting or that I will get through this, just as the others in the world have done? With the divorce rate at almost 70%...the chances of hearing stories are good! God has put in my heart the vision of the things that are blessings in my life and to focus on them and hold them tight by my heart.
Blessings I am finding are BIG or small and hold on to them with a tight grip!
My son Mike came out of the dugout today FROZEN...JUST TO HUG ME! He has no idea that the fact that he came out of that dugout and yelled for me to meet him behind the muddy dugout just to hug with my this mom's heart be overjoyed. -Thank you God!
My littlest man was frozen this morning and wanted to sit on my lap inside my coat -Thank you God!
My daughter came to the ball fields from a friends house and ran yelling my name "mommmmy" and wanted a kiss and hug when she saw me. -Thank you God!
My son has a game at 1:15 but Brandon packed up our 3 children to bring me Taco Bell for lunch (since I can't leave to eat) so share lunch together. -Thank you God!
I am pouting that I have to work and miss games, family time and eating sunflower seeds but I am aware and appreciate that I am employed! -Thank you God!
Little Blessings:
Amy, Taco Bell, hats, Klove download to work computer, coffee, tivo!
Praying for answers!
Blessings I am finding are BIG or small and hold on to them with a tight grip!
My son Mike came out of the dugout today FROZEN...JUST TO HUG ME! He has no idea that the fact that he came out of that dugout and yelled for me to meet him behind the muddy dugout just to hug with my this mom's heart be overjoyed. -Thank you God!
My littlest man was frozen this morning and wanted to sit on my lap inside my coat -Thank you God!
My daughter came to the ball fields from a friends house and ran yelling my name "mommmmy" and wanted a kiss and hug when she saw me. -Thank you God!
My son has a game at 1:15 but Brandon packed up our 3 children to bring me Taco Bell for lunch (since I can't leave to eat) so share lunch together. -Thank you God!
I am pouting that I have to work and miss games, family time and eating sunflower seeds but I am aware and appreciate that I am employed! -Thank you God!
Little Blessings:
Amy, Taco Bell, hats, Klove download to work computer, coffee, tivo!
Praying for answers!
Friday, May 15, 2009
Just getting started!
My friend/cousin made me think about doing this blogging thing. I have always been a journal type girl but it's time to be 2009! So welcome to my very own blogging site! If I am the only one that reads them, very well but if not...enjoy!
Let me set the scene in my home. Hubby on the couch sleeping (we are seperated) but I work early in the morning so he can wake up with the kids. My boys are sleeping together in Mike's room, sneaking with the TV on (i pretend to not know) and they pretend that I am a good cook...it's a trade off! My daughter and my social butterfly is at a friends house spending the night. I just watched Grey's Finale-tivo'd and wow, I am so impatient and want to know who is leaving! I think they will both die. Izzy and George~I was shocked on the George story line...yikes!
Right now I am freezing but to lazy to get a blanket in the other room and could use some water but again...lazy.
I work tomorow and I am hoping that the boys games get cancelled so I don't have to miss them!! Is that wrong of me? If it is...who cares!
My life has been busy, full of soul searching and learning LOADS of lessons. I am finding out who are my real friends are and I am very grateful for that! Through it all...bad and good God is right next to me, ready to carry me when I can't walk on my own! (footprints is my favorite poem)
So...it's my first night on this blog and be ready to get to know me...cause my goal and motto "FREE TO BE ME!"
Welcome to the ride folks!
Let me set the scene in my home. Hubby on the couch sleeping (we are seperated) but I work early in the morning so he can wake up with the kids. My boys are sleeping together in Mike's room, sneaking with the TV on (i pretend to not know) and they pretend that I am a good cook...it's a trade off! My daughter and my social butterfly is at a friends house spending the night. I just watched Grey's Finale-tivo'd and wow, I am so impatient and want to know who is leaving! I think they will both die. Izzy and George~I was shocked on the George story line...yikes!
Right now I am freezing but to lazy to get a blanket in the other room and could use some water but again...lazy.
I work tomorow and I am hoping that the boys games get cancelled so I don't have to miss them!! Is that wrong of me? If it is...who cares!
My life has been busy, full of soul searching and learning LOADS of lessons. I am finding out who are my real friends are and I am very grateful for that! Through it all...bad and good God is right next to me, ready to carry me when I can't walk on my own! (footprints is my favorite poem)
So...it's my first night on this blog and be ready to get to know me...cause my goal and motto "FREE TO BE ME!"
Welcome to the ride folks!
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